Baby Steps

I am making changes in everypart of my life this year. I have come to realize while meeting some amazing people last year, I wasn't leading the life I intended to. While having fun is important, it shouldn't be the thing that drives you. There wasn't any though as to the reprocussions of my actions. Mainly, I want a close relationship to Christ, which is something i sincerly lost track of. I want to be a doctor and I want to be able to look back upon my life and be proud of who I am and what I have done.I was hurting the people who cared about me most in life. I was pulling away from my family and god. I was hurting myself physically and mentally, not treating myself with the love and respect I deserve. In other words,I was doing things that I knew I shouldn't be doing. I was making bad decisions left and right; whether that be from whom I was dating boys who I knew weren't right for me,to slacking when I should be studying, ignoring my relationship with God,to partying and blacking out multiple times. Having been brought up in a household where I shold have know better, i was putting up barriers and breaking trust. So this year, after a lot of consideration and self reflection I am going to think twice and not return to that person that I didn't recognize this summer in the mirror and if you do catch me falling away from my goals please let me know, hold me accountable. I will appreciate it more that you know even if I cannot say it at the time.

New new new

So I realized that I haven’t really updated my blog in a while as well as the lovely Sarah Lake mentioned to me. Classes started today at PLU and my life has changed a lot in a short period of time. I have been at school since the 15th for work. I feel like I have been living in the training room, and should just get a sleeping bag. Luckily, I love the people I work with and our new ATC Jill is a kick. I did get a few days off to go to Bumbershoot with Meagan and this weekend to help Josh move into Central. Bumbershoot was amazing. We got to see Paramore(Haley Williams’ voice blew me away, she has an amazing stage presence) , The Offspring, and Death Cab for Cutie. Unfortunately, we didn’t get in line soon enough to see Flobots and the band that opened for Death Cab made my ears bleed, but all in all it still was an amazing day with my girl Meagan, and I am so glad that we went. We got each got rings at one of the vendors, mine is a rose and I love it. We both ended up getting Henna on our wrists as well and I am thinking about getting a tattoo tattoo. I am now living in T-stad with my lovely new roommate Emily, whom I adore. She is easy going and fun to be around. Our room looks pretty now that we are done lofting and getting everything the way we like it and I am slowly getting over my fear of elevators out of pure laziness, but I still take the stairs when ever I can help it. Other than that I have a new boy in my life, his name is Josh. He makes me so happy and I am so lucky that we found each other, who would have thought you would meet the boy of your dreams at a busted bonfire at Alki. He is sweet, funny, and time flies when I am with him. I never thought I would be swept off my feet, but there are fireworks every time we kiss and I miss him more than words can express. I drove over with Josh and his family this weekend to help him move into his dorm, Quiqley, early because he is part of the IAP program, which would equate an RA in the international dorm. Well I got to jet. Later.