Baby Steps

I am making changes in everypart of my life this year. I have come to realize while meeting some amazing people last year, I wasn't leading the life I intended to. While having fun is important, it shouldn't be the thing that drives you. There wasn't any though as to the reprocussions of my actions. Mainly, I want a close relationship to Christ, which is something i sincerly lost track of. I want to be a doctor and I want to be able to look back upon my life and be proud of who I am and what I have done.I was hurting the people who cared about me most in life. I was pulling away from my family and god. I was hurting myself physically and mentally, not treating myself with the love and respect I deserve. In other words,I was doing things that I knew I shouldn't be doing. I was making bad decisions left and right; whether that be from whom I was dating boys who I knew weren't right for me,to slacking when I should be studying, ignoring my relationship with God,to partying and blacking out multiple times. Having been brought up in a household where I shold have know better, i was putting up barriers and breaking trust. So this year, after a lot of consideration and self reflection I am going to think twice and not return to that person that I didn't recognize this summer in the mirror and if you do catch me falling away from my goals please let me know, hold me accountable. I will appreciate it more that you know even if I cannot say it at the time.